FEAR.
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Quite a few people we know are going through very difficult circumstances.
One of the families from #4's winter hockey team (as opposed to spring hockey team) is dealing with cancer. He's a tough guy, but I pray for them often. Who wouldn't?
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Some are dealing with addictions, and no matter what, DO NOT EVER tell their loved ones to pray harder. Just tell those family members who are watching a loved one implode that you will stand beside them as best you can.
Some are dealing with varying levels of incurable pain. I can relate to that. All too well.
But one thing I did NOT anticipate has hit me hard enough...
That I'm actually scared.
Now, followers of Christ aren't supposed to succumb to fear. We're not to hang back from battle, but to run IN to the fray. To fight hard because we know our King is beside us, and we know He will win.
But...I realized something this past week.
I have lost something very precious to me.
And I cannot simply find a new one.
I have had this treasure almost my entire life. It is part of what makes me, me. No, it's not the most amazing or powerful or stunning, but it's mine, and I've been told I do all right on occasion. And as my friend Suzanne pointed out, it is how I worship.
Since my fall in January, the one in which my snapped neck backwards?
I have lost my singing voice.
And for a person who sang the highest of the high notes? Who was happiest in the key of F? Who sang the Hallelujah Chorus for fun?
And until I see a doctor or two, I feel like part of me is trapped.
Most importantly, I need to give this over to God. And wait on Him.
What else can I do?
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Update: I see my doctor next Tuesday.
I sure hope he sends me to an ENT.
That's 'ear, nose and throat' specialist. Not a big talking tree. Although, that would be kinda cool.
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Update: I see my doctor next Tuesday.
I sure hope he sends me to an ENT.
That's 'ear, nose and throat' specialist. Not a big talking tree. Although, that would be kinda cool.
