Santa Cruz, California, October 28th, 2014
Tuesday, November 12, 2013
The '2 steps forward-2 steps back' grown-up dance.
Do you ever have days when you just drop your jaw and think "But...I thought I had it all together? I thought when I hit (insert your age here) I'd stop screwing up?"
Days when you crawl into bed and you're too weary to take out your contacts? Too indifferent to brush your teeth? Too worn out to even read?
Stuff is coming at you from all sides and you toss it all in the air and curl up in your blankie and sigh? But you can't sleep because it feels like you've had 14 lattes...and they all tasted bad?
You're a grown-up but all you want to do is call your mom and whine, and I mean WHINE about all the things that are piling up. But since you're a grown-up, you can't, because people need you to get it together and be present in the day to day life that you're supposed to have all together.
But deep inside, there's a kid who just wants to lie down on the floor and play with Legos and eat Halloween candy until she's cross eyed and shaking.
Yeah, yeah, I know. Normally I'm Perky McPerkerton. But yesterday Perky...wasn't.
In late afternoon, when I got to where I was supposed to pick up #4, one person thought it'd be funny to tell me someone should have called, because he got injured.
Then she waved it off, telling me she couldn't do that to me. She's a doll, so I wasn't too mad, AND I knew they'd have called.
At least dinner was good.
And so was the knowledge that I still have one TINY piece of Toblerone hidden in my house.
And I have a steady supply of Earl Grey tea, and cream.
When I woke up this morning, my hair was so bad I laughed out loud. It was pointing straight up and waving.
Today is the day to fill the shoe boxes for Samaritan's Purse, how can that NOT be fun?
And buy Canadian chocolate for certain people who I'll be seeing in a few days.
My house is quiet.
It's NOT snowing.
I have more books than freckles.
I have a lot of freckles.
I just found out I have TWO pieces of Toblerone left.
Make that none...
I have the King of Heaven on my side, and I know I'm loved.
I'll leave you with one more thing...
*tiny bit of housekeeping duties...and I feel uncomfortable asking this...but you on on the lower right, that 'followers' thingy? If you haven't already, and only if you want to, can you 'follow' this blog? Thanks.
And now I feel all "will you go to the Fall dance with me?"